I’m A Gold Digger
My mama didn’t raise no fool. She told me, “girl you gatta take care of yourself. Don’t settle for less go for the best.” and so I set my expectations high. Well I realized early in life that there are two ways to get what you want : 1. Work hard and get it yourself or 2. Work smart and let someone else get it for you. So being a good girl I set out to work hard and get it myself. Very soon I discovered that I was working hard on my own merit and still was not getting it. I did the parties, the guys and the friends, but I still was not getting the Gold.
Then one day I came home from a night on the town feeling empty and sad. I could not shake this feeling I had, something had to change, someone had to give me what I wanted. I was sick and tired of being sick and tired, just miserable and frustrated. I began to cry uncontrollably, so I went in the tub and let the water run to drown out my sobs. It was then that I heard the Lord say to me, “Why are you here? This is not what I have for you. I have more, a better life than this.” I cried even harder, because I knew He was right. How did I let myself get to this point? I was so sorry. Lord, forgive me I have messed up so bad, that was all I said and it was like someone took weight of the world off my shoulders. That night I slept a sleep so sweet even my family noticed the difference on my face the next morning. That began a relationship that remains to this day and I became a Gold(GOD) Digger.
I ended that bad relationship I was in for the final time. You see, until then I thought that was the best that I could do. My new ‘Sugar Daddy’ had more to offer and I was not going to pass up this opportunity. The way He loved me was so complete, it satisfied me wholly. There wasn’t anything I wanted He didn’t give me. My club friends I had to cut off, because though they were cool, they took away from my time with my ‘Sugar Daddy’. You see He is a jealous God and at that time our relationship was fresh and new, so I needed to spend as much time as possible getting to know Him better. As a sharp young lady I had learned that the easiest way to get what you want from someone was to do the things that they liked, say the things that made them feel good and give them the things they want. So I began to read about my ‘Sugar Daddy’, what makes him angry, sad, happy most of all what pleases Him. I learned that He loves when I praise Him – when I tell Him how great He is or that He is the mightiest, the most holy. He loves to have His ego stroked so I did it all day long. And one day He said to me, “I will move heaven and earth for you”, Oh man, I was so overwhelmed I cried for hours. One day I told him I wanted a television for my room so I could watch TBN. Well a few days later my work place launched a Cost Saving Ideas competition or the employees and I had some ideas so I submitted them. About two weeks past I decided I would go and price some TVs at the local stores on my lunch break, well I was shattered when I looked at the prices. The smallest 12” Black & White television cost more than I made in a week. So my friend and I returned to work and were invited to attend the employee luncheon going on in the Ballroom. When we walked into the room sitting in the middle of the floor was a 27” Colour television with a big red bow on it. I said to her, “ Now that’s a real television”. As we sat there eating and chatting they began to announce the reason for the television being there. It was the prize for the winner of the Cost saving competition I had forgotten about. As the announcer began to read the winning entry I said to my friend that sounds familiar, but I still did not realize what was happening. Then he said, “And the winner is Nicole Rolle” I sat there chatting away while everyone at my table stared at me. Then he repeated my name and I realized he was talking to me, I screamed, I cried, I began praising the Lord right there in that luncheon. I could hardly believe what had just happened, yet I knew who was responsible for it. That day I drove home with a 27” colour television that could barely fit in my new car ( another story for another time) and all I spent was some time and an idea to help my employer.
Well I decided that if spending time in prayer, studying the Word of God, hours on end in praise and worship, faithfully paying my tithe and giving offerings got me that television and more I was going for the Gold. The more time I spent in the presence of the Lord the more I learned about Him and the more I received from Him. Spiritual gifts began to abound in my life, doors of opportunities began to fling open before me. I received a full scholarship to further my education in Nassau, before I was done there I received a second scholarship for studies at Florida International University and more. What baffles me is that most people when they find a good thing will do something stupid to mess it up or detach themselves from the source. Like I said before, ‘my mama didn’t raise no fool’. The more I got from my Sugar Daddy, the more I stayed in His face – praise, worship, prayer and the Word. I was determined that I was going to milk him for all He’s got and you know what, “It’s no thang”, cause He is El Shaddai – the multi-breasted one. He is full of milk and honey. It has been eighteen years and I’m still diggin’, still taking and still expecting more. So yes I must confess I am a Gold Digger, a God Digger.
For the earth is the Lord’s and the fullness thereof, the world and they that dwell therein…
His Gold Digger Extraordinaire
By Nicole A. Farrington
Nicole is renowned Bahamian author and has been writing over 20 year. You can find more of his articles at http://www.whatyouneedtoknowpage.com
